"I have too much free time"

Alright! So, this is it! I have always wanted to blog and I’ve been mulling the idea over for months. I’ve started and deleted post ideas way too often but now I’m just getting frustrated with myself.

You see, I haven’t admitted this to many people but I’m not too happy with myself atm. I just feel as though the habits that I have created for myself are both unhealthy and are making me feel unhappy in the long term. I’ve recently turned over a new leaf and decided that instead of sitting around wanting to do something or wishing I was living a certain way. I'm just gonna go ahead and do it! It’s an idea I read about in this great book called “You are a Badass”.  I’m going to start by setting myself some goals that will give me some gratification in achieving. Today’s goal is to start a blog!

So here I am. Hi!

The reason I want to start a blog is because I absolutely love writing and aspire to be a writer someday. Either or journalist or an author, maybe both. Either way you gotta start somewhere and I guess a blog seems like the most logical option I have. It’s easy and I can do it from home or between classes. I also need something to fill up my time. I’ve recently acquired an abundance of free periods because I’ve had to drop some classes at school due a recent surgery I’ve undergone (which I will tell you about later) and also, I’ve implemented another goal to reduced the amount of unproductive time I spend scrolling through Facebook and Instagram. Doing what I love, being productive and filling up time. All good reasons to set this goal, I believe.

So now you know why I’m here, you probably wanna know a little bit about me right? Well my name is Claudia, I’m eighteen years old and the most obvious fact about me is I’m in a wheelchair. Yes. I have a muscle condition but my brain is not affected in the slightest. (What I’m trying to say is I’m a very bright and intelligent person, without sounding conceited). I would describe myself as a typical teenage girl but very much an individual character. I’m very talkative once I get comfortable with you. I probably say too much at times and my mouth often gets me into trouble. Another fun fact about me is my favourite thing to do apart from writing, is to dance. That’s right, you heard me! I am a dancer and have been for almost eleven or twelve years now. Every Friday I get to attend classes and honestly, it’s something that makes me so happy, I don’t even know how I’d live without dancing to keep me going every week. I’m a generally happy and positive girl although I’m not gonna lie, I do have my low periods. In this sense, I’m just like any other human.

In April I underwent surgery on my jaw (the other major feature about me you will notice is my gaping mouth). This surgery was a long time coming and one of the most significant changes in my life. It was also the most exciting thing to happen for me because it was something that will lead to a lifelong dream; to close my mouth and be able to articulate words properly. Sure, I can talk, but talking clearly is something I’ve only dreamed about. My jaw has now by rearranged and is on the road to recovery.

For the first time in my life I can put my front teeth together and bite down on food with them which is something else I tell ya! At first, amazingly weird and now just truly incredible. It definitely gives me hope for further possibilities. I hope to start speech therapy in the near future but for now I am training myself to bring my lips together on my own. It’s hard and I still haven’t got it yet. But I’m not giving up any time soon.

Because I missed a lot of time of school while in hospital I’ve been issued a new plan for my schooling life. Unfortunately, I’m not graduating with my friends this year. But I’m reminding myself it’s a sacrifice for a more important cause. Instead we divided my VCE over two years. This way, I didn’t have to struggle to catch up when I returned to school and I have less pressure on myself for the remainder of the year. However, I’ve come to find that with only two subjects I often manage to finish all of my homework during my free periods, still with time to spare. I have too much free time and not a lot of ways to fill it. 

I have taken up reading a lot which Is great. But I have to read two books at once otherwise I get bored reading the same story for two whole hours, twice a day. I need something else to keep me occupied. I have so many of my own thoughts ideas that I think I’d like to share with you guys out there…. If you’re interested

Anyway, there’s so much I could go on and on about in detail but I figure I should leave room for questions and then maybe I will write future posts on specific topics. I hope I’ve written enough to interest you guys and if you did enjoy this little introduction please let me know and we can get to know each other better. I’m a pretty open minded person so I will try to respond to as many questions or feedback as possible.

I’m obviously very new to the whole blog scene so please bare with me as I get used to how this all works. I hope that I do figure it out quickly so I can keep writing. After all, I’ve only scratched the surface!

Thanks in advance, and have a lovely day! xx